Logical Harm

Im having an odd week. you know how when you feel in sync with the universe and everything just flows? but at the same time when you feel out of sync with the universe and everything is going wrong?

I’m feeling hopeless, and Im sure i’m not alone. the whole virus panic pandemic thing is wearing down everyone. i’m at a dead end job that pays me pennies, but I should be grateful I have a job because a lot of people were recently laid off of work because of the coronavirus. but they pay me pennies. my family puts me last and I am an after thought to many friends. work is stressful, too stressful for just pennies. I have a cough that hopefully will go away. i’m playing it safer this week than I did the entire March.

I’m making progress and making friends that are loving an intensely loyal. I shifted into the light. I’m grateful for the new connections I have. I have a roommate that wears me down as well, they’re insecure jealous and paranoid. its like talking to a wall whenever I interact with them.

I get paid pennies so I can’t record music with hot producers, I can’t book trips for the fall, and my braces (orthodontics) and nose reduction is on hold. as well as finding my dermatologist. I needed all fo this to happen fast for me. I want it all and I want it now. Im trying to be more solution based, and pull myself out of funks. I am getting better, I trained myself. now I bounce back quicker and quicker, every time.

hope this is a temporary funk.